replacement.

swip swapping is just another excuse to mend my broken heart.-me
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so i am really unlucky in love huh?
its kinda very long time,since i met someone that made my heart beat faster,and push me in the right button,
since then all guys i met uhh..how should i say,not up to my standards?

so that was when i started to fling around,mingle with bunch of unserious realtionships,just so that i wont feel lonely,but truth be told,nothing managed to steal my heart.one men after another,somehow i just felt somethings was missing,they are not real,and i am just making them as an excuse to mend my broken heart.

how could i know?
because love,i mean real love made you feel different inside,something new,made you feel like you are a better person which is i'm not feeling it right now,all of these man made me feel the same,LOOSER.

a friend of mine said,
you've always set some sort of standards of men,
which is why you wont get one,
what about their standards?
are you up to theirs?

*long pause*

yes,not everybody perfect,me neither.but what i was actually hoping for is someone that made me feel like the old days again,energetic,vibrant,and feel like i am the only uber hot woman this entire world,

i once read in this article about changing your boyfriend,(previous) blueprint,
only to realized i was all this time kinda have a thing for sweet talker,gushh! haha'
but i dont know,its just soothing,like a therapy for someone to worship you,haha

but that is that,when a sweet talker praised you,they're not doing it for the first time but they'done it with zillion of chicks before.

so according to the article that i supposed to search for more intelligent guy but more laid back,he is supposed to not gushing all over me in the minute we started to know each other,and when he do,its honest and sounded not rehearsed.wuu thats a lot of thing for me to handle yaw,but nevertheless it also holds true..

so there i was,i met this one guy,that is only guy i knew that did not gush over me minute we started to knew each other,in fact he is sooo driving me crazy,for his 'honesty',sometimes i just like to slap him right into his face,but he's nice too on the other hand,but i'm not really sure,well he did drop a few hints on me at times but most of it i really felt like it wasn't serious,but he's nice,and i could tell him everything but umm..i dont know,i'm confused,

he's also playing hard to get now,which i literarily hate.because i had to do the chase,i dont know..

what if he's not real?what if i am just making him an excuse to mend my broken heart? what if i just want to cover up my loneliness?what if i just couldn't live without men?what if ?what if?

life is full of question no?

*long sigh*


thats all i have in mind,thank you for listening,
until i found the love of my life,
au revoir,ciao amore!