"i'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, i am out of control, and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."- missadorabella
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what she said also holds true kan?
honestly.we all ladies.semua insecure.
no no no..don't be frightened.its healthy in fact,a little itty tiny bit of insecurities in us is good but REPEATED LITTLE ITTY TINY BIT NOT SEBAKUL PENUH yang di kelek ke hulu ke mari,get it?
Q: why of a sudden this one come up?
A: sebab ada kejadian tadi, sorang hamba allah ni insecure nya dengan i,menakutkan! so then i'd like to write something about this one in particular.but but but.itu belum menakutkan lagi.the worst part is the lady yang so insecured by me to is my close friend?macam tak boleh faham pulak.does she need to?
yesssz! the real question is not about does she just feel that way upon me or what but DOES SHE NEED TO? haa yang tu yang i nak tanya ni! pelik!
mari kita kaji:-*sound effect CSI please...
premise1- why does she need to.she have a boyfriend yang sangat baik dan menyayangi beliau,although i have to admit,
*die bukan lah solehah sangat*nuff said nuff said.
premise2- of course i adore her! godknows,suara dia sangat sedap dari i,sampai menang pertandingan semua,then how come bila i nyanyi she's just tagging along and at last took the song that i like so much like its her own?
and whenever i choose my song,she also wants to sing that song,and macam nak menunjuk yang she's better than me,
*what for?i already adore her! BUT not anymore.
premise3- and lastly,i don't know,above all things i told ya before.i still befriend lagi dengan lady tu.tiap kali dia me'laser' things about me,aku sabar...tiap kali she brag about her life,aku sabar..do i have like to be an evil just like her?orang selalu kata,'kalau dia buat,kau balas je balik!'
but its hard,sumpah.i've tried.but i'm not as grevious as she are.darn! and i hate it so much! *still aku nak jugak tiru traits dia kan?
jadi tuan tuan dan puan puan,setelah ketiga tiga hujah yang saya bentang kan di atas,do you agree that this lady insecurity level dah melampau?
now lets look from my way of insecurities toward people pulak,but mine is good one.the healthy one.
insecurities one- when another lady have a great smokin hot body,than me.flawless skin.height of a geiselle bundchen.i am so threatened by it.
insecurities two- now that i am single,and still on my way of searching my right one,i do envy people that already found it,which mine is elsewhere.tambah tambah lagi to see that the 'mean girls' always get the men.and i am not.*expressi angelic sekarang,imagine*
insecurities three- when seeing someone who owns one happy picture perfect family,friend-like moms,hippiest dad-and lucky enough to achieved all their dreams without having to ride on rough course like i do.
statement berani mati-* PEOPLE,I DO ENVY YOU.HAPPY?
so now by having all of you to look into my not so perfect and happy life,actually i'm kinda feeling happy though,ada jugak orang nak merasa insecure dengan aku,*yippie!
last but not least,i'd like to stress on this again and again,its healthy ladies,to feel insecure! go be threaten by someone you envied,but as i said do not go overboard! a little is good but not too much.its like make up to make it easy.faham tak?
so,i hope i make myslef clear,that i am not worth of any degree of jealousy from any ladies out there*macam ramai la pulak*
and be honest about your insecurities,confront it.find way to overcome it.dengan cara itulah maka kita boleh menjadikan dunia,a better place.
thats all i guess.untill something is written here again! ciao amore!
-c.i.n.t.a.g.i.l.a-
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