which means french cakap hai semua,good day,are you okay?ca va is commonly used phrase in french sebab it means OK,so if you guys who know one day stucked in a room full of french people kah,kalau terdesak tak tau nak jawab apa,just say,ca va,hihi..done.
alors,(so) ingat tak i've once wrote a letter about 'mempercepatkan graduasi' masa di uitm segamat dulu?
*sila scroll di archive untuk keterangan lanjut*
well, here i am now after about one year surat itu di tulis but never really been sent,
and after three years..so this is where i am now..*long sigh..
well at least i've be 'something rather than nothing' aite?
but having looking back of how huge i hate being sent there for three years,not to mention living with every 'brand' of human and to be particular is to live with a lot of ladies under the same roof,which means a lot of drama..wow,i think i should give myself a kudos for being able to finished the task sucsessfully huh?
well i am a firm believer that myself,is designed to be obstacle,emotion and whatnot proof, nothing can stop me from anything,although there will be time i akan 'terduduk' because life like to challenge me,and they sometimes came in harsh shape,but then again i dont care and i'll push myself,
"apa nak jadi jadi lah!"
so,i still remember i did mentioned in my letter that i'd love to be here,where i am now,with hope that i'll be living in my own home and not with all the drama, i am so sure that i'll be happy,and blah blah blah..
and after three years.bamm! i am in where i wanted to be,that i wrote in that letter,
well,i might say life is a little bit,good here.but its not all good.
i have one more problem.adapting.
to my new life.
i have a problem where i miss on being in the limelight at which is where i am in the past,and not having it now.i have a problem adapting to it.
i have a problem of mixing around with new people and i am like the only one alone.with all my friends have gone seperate directions.
i have a problem of getting myself back together and starting myself back to zero.its hard because i am once at the top.
and last but not list to top the list. i just miss all of the people who gets what's coming out of my head, like the same things as i like, i just miss those people.and the one i am sourrounded with now is clueless of all things i mentioned above.
so if i could now write a letter to my past. i'll tell this:-
hey,i am yourself in future.so congratulations although you have not given a fastrack to your graduation,but now you are where you want to be,despite few things that you are not meant to be.but here you are. i've heard your problems,but just so you know,it wasn't easy here too.it'll be long list if i tell you here.you will be experiencing it soon.but what can i say as yourself in future, how about you enjoy yourself during your last years of fame and fun,before you meet me here,your future.
waiting for you..
SITI SHAHIDATUL AKMAL
2009151XXX
bachelor IS220 library science management hons.
UiTM Puncak Perdana,
kadang kadang bila di fikirkan balik a says from a friend of mine also holds true
"kita tak boleh hidup in the past,try force yourself to live in present"
i know.i know.i am forcing myself,adapting to it.by time i should be ok kan?this is non of a serious matter,its just one from many of my litle complaints along of my life journey. i am pretty much like an old diva complaining about how she is not being used to not to being a diva anymore.
anyway,i thank you all for being here for me.at least i have some place to speaks my heart out.you guys memang menggoda sebab always be by myside:)
until..something is written here again,a bientot!=goodbye
hugs,love&kisses-
c.i.n.t.@.g.i.l.@
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