time:2.09pm
location:as always,my lovely little tiny room uitm segar'amat Johor,
weather:too hot,i doubt there will be a rainy night tonight.
it's been a very long time since I've wrote anything here,other than just few of posted entri bergambar,some songs & movie I've watched & listened to fulfill my so called past time,haha do ask my roomies as i always look relax and might just have a lot of past time to fill on,:p okay! skip that! next,urm..i actually do have lots in mind to write on,but thanks to my fondly very 'useful & fast' connection to the Cyber space,i just have to let them slip away..! okay skip that too!
so now that my fondly very 'useful &fast' connection to the cyber space has just get back to normal i, i got the chance to at least save this one matter & wrote it here.
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Hidden jealousy & self satisfaction.
jealousy.i can see it in your eyes,deep in that tiny black eyes..even if you yourself don't want to admit it,its just there.i also could sense the jealousy feeling in me. i think it's normal to 'feel' jealous about something, when jealousy is caused y a simple reason or made us compete harder to achieve somehing,we're a human being after all,but what is abnormal is when the jealousy is hidden under that wall you yourself built around you,can't see it,can't feel it,but somehow it could be sensed,
inferior. the feeling when we feel down or just slightly challenged no matter by whom or for what reasons it stands,or that extra factor that maybe someone else have but unfortunately we don't.
self satisfaction.feeling inferior,we try to protect ourselves,from feeling self conscious and thinking ourselves as a loser,we try to deny the fact & lastly we'll criticize that subject matter of inferiority so that instead of us feeling down,let them feel the pain vice versa. simple don't you think? you might have done that unconciously you know..
they may look differ,but brings into one similiarity that is results achieved.
trying to deny the fact forever won't do us any good,self satisfaction,hidden jealousy,inferiority, just turning us into some hypocryte ugly creatures that look beautiful in the mirror. what's inside shows outside,so wonder why you don't have people who love you,honestly?
writers note:* don't dare pointing your finger calling anonymous someone plastic,bitch or hore,you might be one too.
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