a perfect life.or so we want it to be.

jotted down at 1:36 am,in this very living hall,33,bandar baru kundang,sg.buloh,selangor.



hello all!
and assalamualaikum,
and,
selamat sejahtera,
my dear friends, dear blogers and readers(macam buletin 1.30)


so..sebelum apa-apa soalan terpacul dari bibirmu nan indah wahai peminatku sekalian,haha sungguh pada saat ini aku amat dilanda perasaan perasan,sudah dapat ku teka,kamu semua mesti nak tanya pasal 'eh mana gambar kelmarin?' kan?kan?kan?..heee,itulah tok nujum sudah bilang,


haa kan dah tak ada,alah..sudah janji sama tuan punya nya,'it will be there just for a little moment only',jadi,janji tetap janji kan?

gambar ni pun okay apa...

haha,sabar..sabar tuan-tuan,ada lagi..gambar ni?

ok la tu,nanti nanti,ada orang cute lagi,kita letak lagi ye tak?dah dah,jangan banyak songel!
so,enough about that cute guy in the photo recently,

since i've incidentally terbaca this one blog,nama dia nurulism.com,that being introduced to me through a good friend of mine,i keep thinking now and then,how is it feels to have a perfect life?
does it feels nice that you want to brag it out to every single human being you've ever known?
not that i am critisizing nurul about she writing it on the world wide web,since blog itu dia yang punya dia punya pasal la kan?married to a young,handsome and romantic doctor,and plus! plus!plus! currently living abroad and having wonderful happiness,who wouldn't do so kan?if i were in the same shoes as hers with the same size also i nak bragggg kasi satu dunia tau i got a very perfect life,

but then again that wasn't my point really,you see,frankly speaking,i don't have a perfect life,or so that i always wanted it to be,so it is possible for me to wonder how does it feels like,to be in that picture,always the one with lucky hand got the chance,to have a taste,of that perfect life,and like a dream,we don't want to wake up or be woken up,ever..

as in my case,i keep on thinking,how could i have such perfect life,jika tak sehebat nurul pun,mengikut piawaian pun okay lah,then i terfikir lagi,apa piawaian untuk hidup sempurna?adakah standard atau penanda aras tertentu sehingga kehidupan kita,diiktiraf,okay,hidup kamu sempurna.tak ada.adakah kita perlu kaya?kemudian hidup kita pasti sempurna,atau kita perlu cantik menawan?kemudian barulah hidup kita sempurna,jika itulah standard untuk menjadi sempurna,kehidupan itu akan menjadi kehidupan yang di bikin untuk kelihatan sempurna,

hiduplah di dalam kehidupan kamu sendiri bukan orang lain,
sempurna itu,subjektif,
sempurna is the one that suites you,your life,
bukan you or your life that made to suites the perfection,atau standard,benchmark,apa pun jua yang sebenarnya tidak langsung wujud,


so it be,
i don't have a tall,rich and handsome boyfriend pun,
so it be,
kalau i'm not as beautiful as you are,
so it be,
kalau i am not having a perfect life macam lukisan vincent van gaugh sekali pun,

kepuasan saya dalam menjalani jatuh bangun hidup ini,itu adalah kesempurnaan,pelengkap dalam hidup saya,

and for those yang merasa hidupnya almost perfect,tapi mungkin lack of one that small little details,sekurangnya just be thankfull at least to had the chance to have a taste of that perfection,
like a say,everybody is not perfect kan,almost perfect tu ada la,

kalau mungkin saya cemburu dengan nurul,ya saya cemburu,
but i'm happy to just look at her life and praying, hoping,dreaming, one day,i'll be blessed with such blessings yang allah beri pada dia,allah turut beri pada saya..


satu.dua.tiga.
and my life is kinda perfect,according to me,haha

tammat.