*ENTRI BERAT,ENTRI BEFIKIR.
time :10.37 pm but delayed till 1.12 am in the morning
location: depan laptop,kolej nilam wing 1c,UiTM Segamat,Johore.
weather: langit terang disinari bintang..calm and relaxing..
buat baik berpada-pada,
buat buruk jangan sekali.
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i am a confused lady standing in between,
how's that? i just don't know,sometimes being too nice with a good jolly looking face,they'll label me as unprofessional,but on the other hand,being too harsh on a matter that really need a serious consideration and 101% commitment,they'll call me a modern era dictator,so tell me how am i not supposed to be confused in such way am i?
then i started to wonder how is it feel to keep up with those good and outstanding leader,that has to satisfy everyone's need without leaving any mess,and still..look good,if i have a chance to spend a day with those leader,I'll die to ask 'how was it like for you to cater everyone's need was it the hard/brutal way? or considering every each of individuals opinion and decide which one to follow?or was it something between both of that way,the harsh or soft way?'
and this moment also encourage me to talk to my mum and dad, on method taken to raise us,both me and my brother,was it the harsh or spoilt the baby way?
and now standing on the same spot the past people stand before me,i see clearly on what i might seen differently before,the way i solve the mess,the way i act and even the way i speak,already sounded like what i hated to hear before,at some point..i think i'm just another 'them',with nothing to differentiate me at all,am i just don't know what to do and just do it their way,as it like a manual made for me,just read.and follow,or because it's just that they do the right thing,as i hate to admit it.am i?
jadi baik pun susah.
jadi jahat lagi susah.
bukan senang nak jadi baik.
bukan susah nak jadi jahat.
once again..i'm a confused lady..standing in between...
writers note: fiki-fikirkan,selamat beramal!*ting~
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